Day 5. 10 small moments

1. She took about 7 steps towards us, and I almost cried. She was so proud of herself.

2. The morning chaos. After a week away, its like I fell back into the slipstream with the natural forces directing my movements and thoughts. No, not my thoughts. I am still in the sunshine and taking a long moment to watch the orange California poppies fluttering in the breeze.

3. He made biscuits and served them with strawberry jam, coffee and plain yogurt. He did this like he does everything -- as if it's the norm to have home made biscuits and home made yogurt with jam before rushing rushing rushing off to school and work.

4. She left this morning, but not before providing her opinion about the sibling dynamic. Always with the "he said she said..." I pointed out, as usual, that this is not helpful. I manage my own direct relationships, thankyouverymuch. We ended with kindness, though, and hugging. She means well and loves all of us.

5. I sat at my desk at work and realized that I had already deleted half of my title. Did I do this subconsciously or in my sleep? It's amazing how acknowledging "less really can mean more" can be so liberating and truthful. 

6. Buttons. Lots and lots of colorful 1-inch buttons. I know that they will be all over my house within a day, but I take some anyway.

7. He feeds me even at work. 

8. I take off her shoes and Totoro socks and I pretend (dramatically) that her feet are smelly. She laughs big and I know that she's mine.

9. I buy arugula and asparagus but I forget the potatoes.

10. So much progress in the cafe. Still so much to do. So much to learn, but also celebrate. How do you explain that you want to be comfortable with reviewing the past, be engaged and calm in the now, but also be open and vulnerable and ready to face the future? I like the new kitchen heat lamps. I have no idea how they work. I like that too.