Day 12. 10 small moments

1. We wake up before the kids and hold each other. Mom's Day starts off on the right foot!

2. I work in the garden, but it really isn't work. I love every single moment of it. I love even discussing tearing it down and starting over. He gets exasperated with this kind of talk, but I can't help it. The idea of tilling the whole thing and starting over will always be appealing to me. Just as with everything else in life. I know I will survive anything since starting over is something I don't find scary.

3. I look for an old photo of her and me together. She's so beautiful.

4. The boys and I walk to the barn while they fling Nerf arrows ahead of us. I'm torn between wanting them to be in the moment enjoying nature with me... and seeing if they can shoot their arrows even farther if they experiment with the angle of their aim.

5. The barn is too big. I get his text too late that the railing is temporary. I do a mini freak out, but all is okay.

6. My nails and hands are black (and so dry they crackle) from the sifted ash and water mixture I made with the boys. It was messy and fun and I loved every ephemeral artistic scientific playful moment.

7. We leave the cabin after just arriving, it seems. We accomplished so much in 26 hours, but I still feel like it wasn't long enough (it never is)...

8. The car ride home feels longer than usual. It could be because I'm super uncomfortable. Or because JoJo isn't napping. 

9. She LOVED her orange Nike shoes. She's getting ready for Princeton, and it's starting to hit me that we'll see so much less of her -- so new shoes is fun for me. It's what every Godmother should give, right?

10. Strawberry-Rhubarb pie for dessert. They love me.