Day 32. 10 small moments

1. I watch him move about the kitchen making egg sandwiches and cutting up fruit for all of us. He is in his element, and I feel thankful for knowing him. loving him. being loved and cared for by him.

2. I'm on my way to see her, and for the long drive I play the FDC playlist that was created for all of us. I play a few tracks more than once, and belt out the songs off key.

3. "In the Basement." Etta James. I'm laughing alone in the car because this is basically his theme song for the summer. It's a gorgeous day, and the temperature's perfect?!! Too bad, he'd prefer to hang out in the basement and play with Legos all day, every day.

4. Highway traffic at a standstill for 20 minutes. It's the only time that you experience a snapshot of a landscape usually seen at 75+ miles per hour. We're completely surrounded by Queen Anne's Lace. It reminds me of the time he made a bouquet of them for me. He gave me a cloud, and I loved them.

5. It's 10:01 AM, and there is no parking every Thursday from 8AM to 12PM. This frustrates me so much that I send him texts about shifting long term strategic goals. He texts me off the ledge after I park illegally.  

6. Faux plants. I used to make fun of them, but now I've come to the point in my life in modifying my judgement: They work pretty hard at cheering a place up while asking for very little in return. I place the succulents in the corner between two new green leather couches.

7. His artwork is all around, and I feel both appreciative and sad... And then I'm done feeling either and briskly move on. 

8. After months and months, she's the first one I've seen in person since our sacred time together. I feel revitalized, and try to savor the time while making plans for the future. Being around her makes me smile.

9. I set Google Maps to the next cafe, and I wonder about the distances between them, about my choice in all of this. The last time I drove this far for work, I was a consultant doing my own thing with my own clients. Our lives were intertwined in a different way -- not better or worse -- just different. I try and slow down my thinking to seek the truth: What do I want to do next?

10. Book club discussing a very entertaining book. Small wins.